I lay here cryin
Of course no one knows
It feels like I am dyin
Is it only me?
That's how it feels
Cause no one is here
I always mess it up
Every single time
They all promise to be there
And they all lie
Nothing is safe
In a world full of pain
What has become of the hope that I made?
I can't even bother to remember to pray
I wanna go the distance
But they push me away...
I watch with jealousy
They think I'm strange
The girl who just sits there
So stupid and strange
They would say,
Look, there she is!
Is she not stupid?
I mean, look at her hair,
She dyed it black!
And her clothes are insane
Dude, that's a fact.
Now, I don't mine it much
Not when it comes to that
I just really hate
When they tell me how to act
They think they get it
But how could they possibly?
I know it's depressing
But no one does
And I'm not sure anyone ever will...
Ever will want to see me, talk to me
Want to be with me
No one has, no one does
Yes, I'm cynical
But I speak the truth
I don't lie
(Don't ask my parents if I do)
Actually, I'm too honest
Is there such a thing?
What else do I have?
What else can I bring?
This was SUPPOSED to be different
Things were supposed to change...
But I think I know now
It was me that was wrong
I'm the problem
The only common factor
But I'm not alone
I know there are others
I know I'll get through
I know God loves me
And a few people do too
I can make it through this
I am making friends
A few see my heart
And don't look away
Because it's so broken
It might make you cry
It's so lost and confused
And it hurts for every heart
That's fallen prey to hardship
Like I have in my life
I know I'm luckier than most
Because of what I have
But I wouldn't care
As long as
I knew I was alright
And not so insane
Not such a freak
Not so mundane
I want to shine
But I'm too far back
Down in the line
An impossibility, you say?
I don't use the word
Because anything is possible
If you dare to try
I guess that means me, too
It's not like I'm giving up
I just wanted to vent
I guess stopping here is enough
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